"Dreams" shatter? back to square one....

I knew it, things is always not smooth for me, or should say has never been smooth.....deal is never a deal without B&W and I always knew that. Though that I've already forsee for the worst but still feel the pain for it....well....i'm still at the same point....not moving any forward...... hopefully this really brings me a bit of luck.....that's the only bit that I'm lack of.....a lucky gift from my best friend, mei.....